Under expectations, I was shaped:
The perfect candidate
The perfect student,
The perfect intern
The perfect daughter
My perfect self.
The perfect candidate
The perfect student,
The perfect intern
The perfect daughter
My perfect self.
Under expectations I crumbled:
Perfect obsessions
Perfect compulsions
Perfect violence
Perfect mutilation
Perfect chaos
Perfect obsessions
Perfect compulsions
Perfect violence
Perfect mutilation
Perfect chaos
Under expectations I gave in:
To a stolen moment
To overwhelming desire
To a sudden eruption
Succumbing to the forbidden
Graceless liberation
To a stolen moment
To overwhelming desire
To a sudden eruption
Succumbing to the forbidden
Graceless liberation
Under certain events I was left:
Rejected
Heartbroken
Struggling
Ignored
Erasing the moment, pretending it never happened.
Rejected
Heartbroken
Struggling
Ignored
Erasing the moment, pretending it never happened.
Under your unwanted regrets I realized my:
Perpetual exhaustion
Constant dissociation
Sudden awakening
Sparking rebellion
Desire for regrets.
Perpetual exhaustion
Constant dissociation
Sudden awakening
Sparking rebellion
Desire for regrets.
Under your memory I will forge new ones,
With someone ready to make mistakes,
Someone who will ignite me and consume me.
Someone that is finally, not you.
With someone ready to make mistakes,
Someone who will ignite me and consume me.
Someone that is finally, not you.
Frida Victoria Perez is a writer born and raised on both sides of the Rio Grande River. Due to this, she developed a bi-cultural identity and a desire to be champion for mental illness awareness and other issues surrounding Mexican-Americans.
